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After trying repeatedly to get mobile blogging to work this is the only one that went through, now it says invalid destination address... humm not sure what's up here... ugg.. i'll figure it out if I have to kill this dang cpu though...
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Friday, January 2, 2009
The Flight Home
"Also found in same journal from 2003"
As she sat down on the plane seat and buckled the seat belt she let her mind drift back to what had brought her to this point in her life. Before she could fully relax and let her mind wander, the stewardess steped up to the seat.
"Signora, can I interest you in moving up to the front of the plane? There is more room for you to be comfortable and relax. It is a long flight and the baby would be much more pleasant to you if it was comfortable as well."
'Yes and I'm sure they would be. I'm having twins and they'll be the death of me just from the kicking!' she stated.
"Si Signora, I understand. My sister has four year old triplets and she says the same every time I talk to her. Right this way. I will take your bag and store it next to your seat for you. Right here we are. Your bag is right about you, and if you need anything just buzz and I will get it for you. Would you like a pillow, blanket, or an extra seat belt extender?" the stewardess said in her thick Italian accent.
'All of the above would be wonderful. Grazie!'
"Si, Prego. Your seat mate should be joining you momentarilly, he just checked in. If you would like anything please do not hesitate to ask."
'Grazie, you have been a wonderful help." she said as she turned to look out the window and try to relax for the long flight home.
She must have drifted off from the exhustion of the airport. He just stared at her. After being here for almost two weeks trying to find her and always just missing her, here she was. He couldn't believe his luck that not only was he starring at her, but she was in HIS seat.
"Scuzzi Signor, the Signora was moved for her comfort. You could take the seat next to her, or take her assigned seat if you like. Which ever would be most preferable to you. As you can see, she is quite far in her pregnancy...." she stammered as she saw the furry grow in his eyes. "Signor, I was just trying to help her, I didn't mean to anger you.."
'That's enough! I'm going to kill her! I can't believe she didn't tell me she was pregnent!' he said it so quite she was even more scared for the Signora.
"Signor, if you keep this up you will be exited from the plane." the stewardess state quite seriously.
'It's okay. I won't hurt her.' he said calmly and a bit shaken. 'She's the reason I was in Italy,' he stated plainly.
"Scuzzi Signor?"
'She's my wife and I've been chaing her around this country and several others since I discovered she was in Europe after she decided to leave me. I'll just sit next to her and watch her sleep. However, I may have to take you up on her origional seat so she doesn't kill me when she wakes up.' he said resignedly (sp?).
"Si Signor, it is Row 18, seat B"
'Grazie Signorina, You've been quite helpful.' He sat back to relax. He put the arm rest between them up so Elize would have more room. God she was beautiful. Her long honey blond hair was pulled up in a losse knotted bun. Just slightly messy but oh so adorable. Wondering if his child was a boy or a girl or if she even knew. Knowing Elize she wouldn't want to know. God, did she pick out names, without him? That hurt, just the thought of it. Elize shifted in her seat snuggling into his arm. God he missed her. She felt so different but oh so much the same. He relaxed as the plane started to take off down the runway. In ten hours they would be back in the states. He had ten hours to convince her infront of the entire plane that he was still in love with her, still wanted her, couldn't be without her.
Her dream was wonderful. Christopher was holding her, loving her. A hand on thier children. He was breathing in her scent of her hair. He always loved her hair. He didn't care if it was short or long. Just as long as she didn't color it. She didn't want to go back to reality, to being alone in the awake world. Sitting next to a stranger on a plane. She'd be home soon. She had to face his rage soon enough. When she got there, he would be furious that she kept this from him, from them. When he told her that she didn't think he was ready to have a child and that he thought they should wait a couple more years when she asked him about going off the pill. His responce crushed her. She was already pregnent and didn't think he could handle it. So she made the decision, he's not ready but I am. I'll take care of my baby all on my own. Asher vow to herself echoed in her mind she relized she was leaning on her seat mate. The lights were turned down so those who wanted to could sleep.
"Oh my, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to sleep on you bu these babies tire me out so," she exclaimed! When he didn't answer she thought he was asleep.
'Did you just say babies?' he whispered huskilly in his sleepy state.
Oh my, oh my, oh my, it can't be, it can't be!!! she thought... She reached up to turn on the light but his hand stilled hers.
'Don't! You'll wake up everyone around us. Just let me hold you? Please?' he pleaded with her quitely.
She settled back into him and tried to relax. He wasn't screaming at her, he just wanted to hod her. She could give him that much for not yelling at her to start off with.
'Thank you, I know I'm calm but I've had about four hours to work through my furry at you, and God but aren't you the most beautiful that I've ever seen you.' she started to inturupt but he continued on, 'Don't , not now. I don't want to ruin this, my god almighty but just holding you seems to make everything better. Just promise me this. We'll talk when we get back to the states about our problems. Not before then, We'll just sid here and be in love and love our...
"Children?" he whispered the last.
"Yes our children, a boy and a girl. Two, twins... I've always said I'd have twins, and no I haven't definately chosen thier names. I was waiting to get home and tell you and ask you if you agree," she whispered to him.
'What would they be?' god he hopped and prayed he would like them because he was not going to tell her no even if the were Moonbeam and Sunshine.
"Well, what do you think about Christopher II not Jr. and Christina Irene Marie after our mothers?" She didn't dare look at him but she felt him let out a ragged breath. Slowly she turned in his arms. There were tears running down his face and the love that shone from his deep mocha eyes made her start crying.
'Don't. Your eyes look like a storm tossed sea when you cry. Don't cry. I love the names and lord help me but even when I want to kill you for hidding from me, I still love you!' he said as his mouth slowly settled over hers. He demolished what little resolve she had left with that sould searing kiss. It didn't stop. Just kept continuing, god he was driving her crazy. His tounge exploring and playing with hers. Dancing, probeing, plillaging, plunging, God it was good to be back in his arms!
"Um humm. But you two might want to knock it off. Were awefully glad you made up but from the looks of it you forgot you were on a plane so my wife convinced me to inturrupt you two," the older gentleman accross the isle mumbled the last.
"Oh my, I can't believe we forgot. Oh my!" Elize stammered.
'Shush, just go back to sleep and let me hold you. Please Elize? I won't get out of hand again,' He pleaded.
"It's not you I'm worried about. It's been to long, I want you sooooo bad but this is definately not the place or the time Chirstopher. Hold me please," she wimpered.
God but he wanted her to but she was right about this not being the time or the place so he just held her. They both drifted back to sleep.
"Escuzzi Signor. But it is almost time to land and your Signora won't come out of the bathroom," the stewardess pleaded with him.
"Oh my God! The babies!" he was terrified, "Elize unlock the door, please!" he heard a click. "Oh my darling, it's going to be all right."
'It's too soon, too soon, I'm not far enough along,' she inturrupted him.
"Stewardess hey!" he yelled, "tell the captain to radio the tower that we need to be broughten down NOW, they have to jump us in line, and have an ambulance waiting going to St. Catherines Childrens Hospital. She's prenant with twins approxamently 32 weeks into pregnancey," he barked at her. "Come on darling, I have to get you into a seat, it's only a couple feet. It's alright, breathe, in and out, in and out," he whispered tenderly in her ear.
'How did you know how far along I am?' she stammered out throught the pain.
"Because I know now that what you were trying to tell me in that last fight when you talked about going off the pill is that you already were pregnent. My god, it's going to be alright, I swear to you I'll make everything better for us." he told her as calmly as he could all the while slowly moving her into the stewardesses seat.
"Signor, the captain has an ambulance standing by and we are next to land, buckle yourself in next to her and we will sit in your seats." she said panicked just a little.
All the other stewardesses were stowing everyones belongings and making sure they were all buckled in for the landing.
"Ladies and Gentlemen, this is your captain speaking. Please remain seated after we land so medical presonel can board the plane. It seems we have two babies that are a bit impacient to be born. Thank you for your cooperation. Congratulations to the soon to be parents.
'Yeah!, Woo Hoo, Congrats!' everyone cheered.
"OH MY GOD!!!! IT HURTS!!!! Elize screamed!
"Remember, he he hoo, he he hoo. Come on you can do it," Chirstopher crooned.
'Oh FUCK You, this really hurts!'
As she sat down on the plane seat and buckled the seat belt she let her mind drift back to what had brought her to this point in her life. Before she could fully relax and let her mind wander, the stewardess steped up to the seat.
"Signora, can I interest you in moving up to the front of the plane? There is more room for you to be comfortable and relax. It is a long flight and the baby would be much more pleasant to you if it was comfortable as well."
'Yes and I'm sure they would be. I'm having twins and they'll be the death of me just from the kicking!' she stated.
"Si Signora, I understand. My sister has four year old triplets and she says the same every time I talk to her. Right this way. I will take your bag and store it next to your seat for you. Right here we are. Your bag is right about you, and if you need anything just buzz and I will get it for you. Would you like a pillow, blanket, or an extra seat belt extender?" the stewardess said in her thick Italian accent.
'All of the above would be wonderful. Grazie!'
"Si, Prego. Your seat mate should be joining you momentarilly, he just checked in. If you would like anything please do not hesitate to ask."
'Grazie, you have been a wonderful help." she said as she turned to look out the window and try to relax for the long flight home.
She must have drifted off from the exhustion of the airport. He just stared at her. After being here for almost two weeks trying to find her and always just missing her, here she was. He couldn't believe his luck that not only was he starring at her, but she was in HIS seat.
"Scuzzi Signor, the Signora was moved for her comfort. You could take the seat next to her, or take her assigned seat if you like. Which ever would be most preferable to you. As you can see, she is quite far in her pregnancy...." she stammered as she saw the furry grow in his eyes. "Signor, I was just trying to help her, I didn't mean to anger you.."
'That's enough! I'm going to kill her! I can't believe she didn't tell me she was pregnent!' he said it so quite she was even more scared for the Signora.
"Signor, if you keep this up you will be exited from the plane." the stewardess state quite seriously.
'It's okay. I won't hurt her.' he said calmly and a bit shaken. 'She's the reason I was in Italy,' he stated plainly.
"Scuzzi Signor?"
'She's my wife and I've been chaing her around this country and several others since I discovered she was in Europe after she decided to leave me. I'll just sit next to her and watch her sleep. However, I may have to take you up on her origional seat so she doesn't kill me when she wakes up.' he said resignedly (sp?).
"Si Signor, it is Row 18, seat B"
'Grazie Signorina, You've been quite helpful.' He sat back to relax. He put the arm rest between them up so Elize would have more room. God she was beautiful. Her long honey blond hair was pulled up in a losse knotted bun. Just slightly messy but oh so adorable. Wondering if his child was a boy or a girl or if she even knew. Knowing Elize she wouldn't want to know. God, did she pick out names, without him? That hurt, just the thought of it. Elize shifted in her seat snuggling into his arm. God he missed her. She felt so different but oh so much the same. He relaxed as the plane started to take off down the runway. In ten hours they would be back in the states. He had ten hours to convince her infront of the entire plane that he was still in love with her, still wanted her, couldn't be without her.
Her dream was wonderful. Christopher was holding her, loving her. A hand on thier children. He was breathing in her scent of her hair. He always loved her hair. He didn't care if it was short or long. Just as long as she didn't color it. She didn't want to go back to reality, to being alone in the awake world. Sitting next to a stranger on a plane. She'd be home soon. She had to face his rage soon enough. When she got there, he would be furious that she kept this from him, from them. When he told her that she didn't think he was ready to have a child and that he thought they should wait a couple more years when she asked him about going off the pill. His responce crushed her. She was already pregnent and didn't think he could handle it. So she made the decision, he's not ready but I am. I'll take care of my baby all on my own. Asher vow to herself echoed in her mind she relized she was leaning on her seat mate. The lights were turned down so those who wanted to could sleep.
"Oh my, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to sleep on you bu these babies tire me out so," she exclaimed! When he didn't answer she thought he was asleep.
'Did you just say babies?' he whispered huskilly in his sleepy state.
Oh my, oh my, oh my, it can't be, it can't be!!! she thought... She reached up to turn on the light but his hand stilled hers.
'Don't! You'll wake up everyone around us. Just let me hold you? Please?' he pleaded with her quitely.
She settled back into him and tried to relax. He wasn't screaming at her, he just wanted to hod her. She could give him that much for not yelling at her to start off with.
'Thank you, I know I'm calm but I've had about four hours to work through my furry at you, and God but aren't you the most beautiful that I've ever seen you.' she started to inturupt but he continued on, 'Don't , not now. I don't want to ruin this, my god almighty but just holding you seems to make everything better. Just promise me this. We'll talk when we get back to the states about our problems. Not before then, We'll just sid here and be in love and love our...
"Children?" he whispered the last.
"Yes our children, a boy and a girl. Two, twins... I've always said I'd have twins, and no I haven't definately chosen thier names. I was waiting to get home and tell you and ask you if you agree," she whispered to him.
'What would they be?' god he hopped and prayed he would like them because he was not going to tell her no even if the were Moonbeam and Sunshine.
"Well, what do you think about Christopher II not Jr. and Christina Irene Marie after our mothers?" She didn't dare look at him but she felt him let out a ragged breath. Slowly she turned in his arms. There were tears running down his face and the love that shone from his deep mocha eyes made her start crying.
'Don't. Your eyes look like a storm tossed sea when you cry. Don't cry. I love the names and lord help me but even when I want to kill you for hidding from me, I still love you!' he said as his mouth slowly settled over hers. He demolished what little resolve she had left with that sould searing kiss. It didn't stop. Just kept continuing, god he was driving her crazy. His tounge exploring and playing with hers. Dancing, probeing, plillaging, plunging, God it was good to be back in his arms!
"Um humm. But you two might want to knock it off. Were awefully glad you made up but from the looks of it you forgot you were on a plane so my wife convinced me to inturrupt you two," the older gentleman accross the isle mumbled the last.
"Oh my, I can't believe we forgot. Oh my!" Elize stammered.
'Shush, just go back to sleep and let me hold you. Please Elize? I won't get out of hand again,' He pleaded.
"It's not you I'm worried about. It's been to long, I want you sooooo bad but this is definately not the place or the time Chirstopher. Hold me please," she wimpered.
God but he wanted her to but she was right about this not being the time or the place so he just held her. They both drifted back to sleep.
"Escuzzi Signor. But it is almost time to land and your Signora won't come out of the bathroom," the stewardess pleaded with him.
"Oh my God! The babies!" he was terrified, "Elize unlock the door, please!" he heard a click. "Oh my darling, it's going to be all right."
'It's too soon, too soon, I'm not far enough along,' she inturrupted him.
"Stewardess hey!" he yelled, "tell the captain to radio the tower that we need to be broughten down NOW, they have to jump us in line, and have an ambulance waiting going to St. Catherines Childrens Hospital. She's prenant with twins approxamently 32 weeks into pregnancey," he barked at her. "Come on darling, I have to get you into a seat, it's only a couple feet. It's alright, breathe, in and out, in and out," he whispered tenderly in her ear.
'How did you know how far along I am?' she stammered out throught the pain.
"Because I know now that what you were trying to tell me in that last fight when you talked about going off the pill is that you already were pregnent. My god, it's going to be alright, I swear to you I'll make everything better for us." he told her as calmly as he could all the while slowly moving her into the stewardesses seat.
"Signor, the captain has an ambulance standing by and we are next to land, buckle yourself in next to her and we will sit in your seats." she said panicked just a little.
All the other stewardesses were stowing everyones belongings and making sure they were all buckled in for the landing.
"Ladies and Gentlemen, this is your captain speaking. Please remain seated after we land so medical presonel can board the plane. It seems we have two babies that are a bit impacient to be born. Thank you for your cooperation. Congratulations to the soon to be parents.
'Yeah!, Woo Hoo, Congrats!' everyone cheered.
"OH MY GOD!!!! IT HURTS!!!! Elize screamed!
"Remember, he he hoo, he he hoo. Come on you can do it," Chirstopher crooned.
'Oh FUCK You, this really hurts!'
found in a journal from 2003...
This is just a start from a hand written page in an almost empty journal I found recently...
As she lay sprawled on her bed she drempt she was the heroine in the romance novella she was reading. A fairy, a princess, anything except for what she was.
An only child.
Destined to be an old maid.
She wasn't aware of what lie in her heart. All she knew was that her life was monotonous and she wanted a change. But how to go about changing her life. Over-weight by about 80 or so pounds, she couldn't imagine anyone being interested in her romantically. She couldn't see herself having sex with anyone. Everyone she has any type of interest for is out of her league. Too gorgeous, too involved with themselves, etc. The current guy she liked was involved currently with two women at least at the same time. And she didn't know if she could deal with that. When she gave her heart she wanted it to be forever...
As she lay sprawled on her bed she drempt she was the heroine in the romance novella she was reading. A fairy, a princess, anything except for what she was.
An only child.
Destined to be an old maid.
She wasn't aware of what lie in her heart. All she knew was that her life was monotonous and she wanted a change. But how to go about changing her life. Over-weight by about 80 or so pounds, she couldn't imagine anyone being interested in her romantically. She couldn't see herself having sex with anyone. Everyone she has any type of interest for is out of her league. Too gorgeous, too involved with themselves, etc. The current guy she liked was involved currently with two women at least at the same time. And she didn't know if she could deal with that. When she gave her heart she wanted it to be forever...
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